Sleepless Nights

Another night, or rather early dawn, and I’m awake, as a million thoughts and memories run through my head like a trading ticker on the stock market.  It doesn’t slow down and I start tossing around as my body won’t get comfortable.  Finally, I get up refusing to fight  what woke me in the first place.  Why do some memories just show up out of the blue?  Why don’t others?

As I sit here in the dark, sipping on a cup of tea, I remember nights like this when I lived a block off the ocean in Long Beach, California.  I always slept with my window open, because I loved the smell of the ocean’s air.  It seems like a lifetime ago but the memory is still vivid, along with the smells and sounds.

There was a woman who passed below my window every day in the early morning hours, before the sun came up.  I don’t know why I thought of her now.  But the following poem poured out of me when I woke.  I use the term “poem” lightly.  Maybe once her memory is brought to life, I can sleep again.

Morning’s Rite
Crickets sing to whoever listens.
The air is heavy and sticky with
salty moisture of the ocean.
The robin’s solo sounds
lonely in the darkness.

Then I hear the humming;
Her “ohms” on every exhale,
in harmony together with
each step she takes, like
every predawn past.

As her song slowly fades
into the distance, it’s
replaced by the surf crashing
in repetitive sequence and
I am lulled back into dreams.

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Writing my way out of a block

I have been gone from writing for too long.  You might say, “life” just got in the way.  I think of a country song, that best describes it; “…this crazy tragic, sometimes almost magic, awful beautiful life.”   That describes, without detail, pretty much everything.

I’ve been reading a few blogs lately, trying to be inspired again (not that I haven’t been), but to find something to help me write my way out of a block.  This month is poetry month.  Not that I’m a poet, but my young middle school self, thought she was pretty good at it when she would huddle with her best friend and pop out love poems that only pre-teens can imagine.

A writing site, which I’m a member of, posts things for inspiration that I usually never do, but today I decided to try my hand at it.  The instructions were: What do you love? What have you lost? What’s your favorite thing in nature? Let’s combine them into a poem!  Here’s what I came up with.

The sun’s warmth
pinches my cheeks.
Its light brightens the room
just like dad did when he walked in;
when he wasn’t just a memory.

I watch an Osprey
perched high on our boat mast,
spread it’s wings and demand attention
to the present, leaving the
past behind…for now.

Sometimes what you love, lost, and favorite things, can best be described in how you write about it.   I obviously don’t do any rhyming…well not since I got past those pre-teen years.  I don’t consider myself to be a poet, but this has sure helped to break the block.